The ASMR Daily 120
Overdosing in Portuguese
Back in 2014 when I was drinking six handles per week, I never thought I would grow to become friends with multiple people from Brazil. Yet, here we are! Roanne, Fernando, Carol, Vagner…the list goes on! Most of my Brazilian friends I’ve met at hostels, but that’s not the only place to meet travelers.
What does that have to do with maintaining sobriety? Well…everything! Hindsight has me convinced that I became and alcoholic out of boredom, and so travel has become, uniquely, my “new vice.” Seriously…I have to travel. That doesn’t seem to cause any problems though.
If I found myself wanting to drink alcohol again, and that feeling lasted long enough, I would probably give into that feeling. After all, I obviously enjoy drinking alcohol or I never would have done it in the first place! My philosophy is to be happy. If I thought drinking alcohol would make me happy, then I’d definitely do it. Obviously, however, I know that drinking alcohol leads to an unsustainable life for me. I will more than likely never have another drink for the rest of my life. How could I possibly run a business if I were drinking? Because you can be damn certain that if I start drinking again, I’m not going to stop. Quitting drinking was kind of a traumatic experience, why would I want to go through that again?
Am I making sense? Or is this making you feel as if all hope is lost? Honestly! My philosophy is so much different than most of the sobriety philosophies I have encountered. If you want to have a drink, you will probably end up having a drink. If you don’t want to have a drink, you will probably end up not having a drink. Individuals in recovery have definitely told me that they want to have a drink, but they can’t because they have a problem. This is logical, and I support that attitude. However I believe the one’s who can say to themselves “No, I don’t want a drink, even if it comes with a free lottery ticket,” are the ones who have set them up for long term happiness in regards to addiction recovery.
I do not want a drink. I do want to go to Brazil. I won’t work a 9-5. I will smoke weed. I am not worried my life is going to fall apart. I am loved, if only by myself.
Slight Sounds ASMR
So you’re serious about learning Portuguese, are you? It’s an arduous road, but at the end of that road is infinite and intimate access to a beautiful, strong, and growing culture. A couple of months ago I was dead-set on learning Portuguese. As it turns out [and I already knew], I am not very disciplined when it comes to long term learning tasks, such as learning a new language.
It might be important to note that I have never been to college [I went for 2 months, but I didn’t show up for most of that time], and I believe that the most important skill you gain from college is discipline. Can you do the same thing for four years in a row in order to achieve your goals and fulfill your dreams? Or can you not? College will let you know haha. Right now, I am certain I would be able to finish 4 years of college, but only if I wanted to…and I don’t want to. What I want to do is write, and travel, and eventually have a family or something idk. What does this have to do with sobriety? Oh jeez, idk! Just know that you are not alone in fighting your addictions! You’ve got 10% of Americans over the age of 12 fighting [or not fighting] with you. Can you fathom that I am talking about individuals addicted to drugs and alcohol? In 2010, one in ten people in the USA over the age of 12 was a drug or alcohol addict, according to drugfree.org. How much do you think that has changed in the last 10 years?
Much more giddy I was, when I drank everyday, but today I posses real happiness, and that is in part because I practice abstinence in regards to alcohol. I’m not sure I’ve ever met anyone who has regretted quitting drinking alcohol [or hard drugs]. Sure, I have heard people tell me they are upset because they “had to quit,” but I am almost always forced to deem those individuals to be unfit, psychologically, to really make the determination if they want to imbibe or not. When you get arrested, and you are forced to choose between quitting alcohol/drugs, or going to jail, you are going to have a really difficult time separating your emotions about the police from your emotions about drug abuse. How many people do you think get out of jail and shoot up heroin within the first hour, simply out of spite? These people deep down know that the needle doesn’t lead them to long term satisfaction, but the combined satisfaction of the drug along with expressing ones resentment toward police creates an unfair bias in the mind of an addict.
“I’ll show them!” he said aloud, but also to himself. Everyone in the gas station was now wondering what was going on in the restroom, but even if he could care, he remained oblivious. He was thinking about the spoon. He was thinking about the plunger. He was thinking about how 7 hours ago they let him walk out of that prison cell, and how could they not know where he was going? Why did they lock him up and offer him no help? They must want him back. “Here I come!” he said aloud, but also to himself. He didn’t make it back to prison.
x. Spark Twain
Everyday Sobriety Advice
I am a recovered alcoholic/drug addict, but I am not a qualified addiction counselor. To help other alcoholics/addicts achieve sobriety, I have created the mantra’s below. Although I call them “steps,” I believe that all four mantra’s should be recited in concurrence.
When the urge to drink alcohol or use drugs comes upon you, I suggest reciting these four steps, and then implementing an activity to “kill time” until your urge to use drugs/alcohol is less intense. I suggest you use ASMR videos to “kill time”
Good luck, My Friend
Below are the steps of admittance required for using The ASMR.Community Sobriety Program [ACSP] successfully.
Step 1: “Sobriety is a choice, and it is up to me to make the right choice.”
Step 2: “Not everybody will be able to achieve sobriety, but that knowledge does not prevent my success regarding sobriety.”
Step 3: “The urge to imbibe (substances that I know will prevent my success) is finite. Sometimes the urge will exist, sometimes the urge will not exist.”
Step 4: “Sobriety is not the same for everyone. Success is.”
I believe the steps I listed above are a complete, non-exclusionary list of all mental admissions needed to achieve your goals regarding sobriety.
Everybody’s definition of sobriety is different, but everybody’s definition of success is the same.
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If you would like to learn more, make sure to read our Philosophy Of Addiction Recovery 1.
For more daily support, check out Sober James on YouTube. He does a livestream every night at 21:00 Eastern Standard Time, and his live streams are a great place to receive support, gain motivation, and listen to encouragement in regard to addiction recovery. His program is based on the Twelve Steps.
SMART Recovery is another great program for individuals who are ready to tackle their addictions.
If you are seeking spiritual guidance, I highly encourage you to check out Tarot Reader ASMR. Her name is Amalia, and she is a kind-hearted individual with a skill for bringing us closer to ourselves.
Don’t underestimate the power of Yoga! Specifically Yoga With Adriene. My shoulder is broken, and so you can do some Yoga for me too. I really wish I could…
If you are looking or more information about ASMR, I’ve found the best place to learn about the subject is ASMR University. Their information is accurate [to the best of my knowledge], and plentiful. I mostly work with the application of ASMR, but there is a whole lot more to ASMR than using it to gain sobriety or fall asleep, including the history and the science of it.
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